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Buck
Dance
By Kris Broughton
It
was four little words, just four little words, that got the whole
thing started. The
stranger at the airport didn’t answer me right away because he
was staring at a common Hartsfield scene: a well-dressed,
middle-aged white woman preening and primping herself by the rear
of a Lincoln Continental limousine.
The black skycap removing her bags from the trunk was
practically buck dancing while he shimmied and swayed towards the
curbside baggage check-in with her luggage.
I’d
gotten out of my cab at the Atlanta airport three minutes earlier.
Heavy rain from the dark clouds that had been hovering all
morning had begun to sting the pavement like a hailstorm.
Spotting the stranger, another tall black man walking
towards the entrance, I’d thrown up my hand, and he had beckoned
me to share his umbrella.
“Thanks,”
I said to him as I tried to match his cadence.
“No
problem,” said the stranger.
When
we reached the massive eaves over the entrance to the airport, the
stranger began to shake excess water from the damp canvas. The way his head was turned to the side, I thought he was
watching the droplets from his umbrella spritz the sidewalk.
“What’s
shakin, my man?” I’d said to him as I started for the
electronic doors.
If
I’d gotten a perfunctory “nothing much,” or just a simple
nod from the stranger, he would have been history.
But it was the awkward silence,
the total lack of acknowledgement from
a brother, that irritated me enough to stop and take a look
over his shoulder.
I
saw a skycap grinning broadly at a middle-aged white woman as he
placed her last bag on the check-in counter.
We both heard the woman cackle at the skycap as she handed
him a crisp five-dollar bill.
For
all the progress we thought
we had made, some things, especially in the south, never seemed to
change. As the
stranger turned his head towards me, I knew before he opened his
mouth what he was going to say.
“What's
shakin? I'll tell you
what's shakin!” The stranger roared as he wound the strap around
his folded umbrella. ”Why
does that skycap have to shake his ass and do the damn bugaloo
just to get that lady's luggage out of her car?
Listen to him – I can still hear him saying thank you
ma'am and she’s already inside.”
“He's
just trying to making sure he gets a good tip.” The stranger
scowled at me as I watched the rain continued to pour from the
black sky.
“Tip?
He's out here dancing a jig for a couple of bucks?”
retorted the stranger.
Here
I was, just out of an early morning meeting downtown, and I was
already getting my shit checked by Mr. Oreo Double Stuff.
We walked into the terminal with the dancing-a-jig phrase
still hanging between us.
“I'll
bet you fifty dollars that whatever airport you're in, you'll see
another black man just like him, just trying to make some
money.” I started to reach for my wallet.
“Only
in the South do black people have to act like damn morons.
You don't see that kind of stuff at LAX.” The
stranger’s tone rubbed me the wrong way.
“So
you're going to L.A.?”
“Irvine,”
the stranger stated flatly.
“Well,
it looks like we're both going to be stuck right here in Atlanta
for a while. The
weather station says everything headed west is at least an
hour-and-a-half behind schedule right now.”
“Damn!
I hate getting stuck in Phoenix!” The stranger howled.
His whole body bristled. It
didn't look like anything was going his way today.
He seemed to be fumbling around for his wallet, probably
for his hospitality suite membership card.
Frequent fliers like him usually holed up in the private
hospitality suites maintained by major airlines when flights were
delayed or canceled.
But
airports can make for strange bedfellows.
Maybe it’s the possibility, however remote, that you
won’t make it back down in one piece, that causes otherwise
rational human beings to seek fellowship in the company of people
they wouldn’t ordinarily give the time of day.
Maybe that’s why I did what I did next.
“Looks
like you could use a break, buddy.
Care to join me for a drink?”
I asked. By
now we had come to the heart of the baggage terminal.
The
stranger looked at his watch and paused for a second to consider
his options. “Why
not?” He then
pulled out his cell phone, and pushed the off-button.
“Looks like I'm out of pocket for awhile.”
He seemed to de-bristle right before my eyes from road
warrior to human being. “By
the way, I'm Marvin,” he said, sticking out his hand, “Marvin
Baxter.”
“I'm
Joe Kasper.”
“Joe,
let me check my new flight arrival time.
I'll be right back.”
I
watched his black cap-toed shoes tattooing the carpet.
Custom tailored two-button sack suit, off the rack button
cuff shirt, non-descript tie, no name watch – it was these
things, combined with the easy confidence in his walk that made me
think blueblood. As
he returned, the upturned end of his ruddy, narrow nostrils
confirmed it.
“So
Marvin, you're gonna tell me that you're it, you're the man in your office?” I
said to Marvin as he returned from the bank of flight arrival
screens. ”What do
you do, anyway?”
We
continued to walk, slower now, towards the Atrium, a newer area of
the airport that housed the kind of bars and restaurants I was
looking for.
“I'm
a bond attorney. I'm
with a small firm out of Century City,” said Marvin.
“So
why are you on the brother about making a living?
Would you have struggled through law school if it only paid
you a teacher’s salary?”
“Come
on, man.” said Marvin. “I've
got two kids. Besides,
my wife only works part time.”
“So
you hustle to get your clients like everybody else, right?”
“But
it's like he's almost begging for the money.”
“You've
never been nice to your clients?”
I continued.
I
should have stopped there. But
there was something about Marvin I didn't like.
Maybe it was the way his hardened eyes had taken the
measure of a man he didn't even know.
Or maybe, just maybe, it was the patrician way his narrow
shoulders rounded ever so slightly at the top, that made me want
to stick it to him just a little bit.
“Come on, you're a bond attorney.” I continued.
“Where did you take the city's financial people last
night? Morton's?
Or Bones?”
Marvin's
bristled-ness threatened to reappear.
“Our large clients need special attention.”
“But
not if she's wearing a fur coat and has a dog named Chi Chi,
according to you.”
“That
lady didn't have on a fur coat!” cried Marvin.
“You
know what I mean.”
The
corridor was beginning to fill with stranded travelers looking for
a comfortable refuge as more and more flight cancellations were
announced over the PA system.
“Hey,
catch the guy behind you,”
I said to Marvin.
“Excuse
me, sir.” Marvin called out to the passing figure of a black man
in a navy blue uniform.
They
both turned their heads, and Marvin found himself looking into the
eyes of the very same skycap we had just seen outside.
Marvin looked back at me with a frown, but I spread my
broad shoulders and glared at him as I approached the skycap.
“Excuse
me, sir,” I repeated to the skycap.
He turned completely around and stopped.
“Man, you look beat.
Let us get you a cup of coffee.”
The
skycap froze. Why are you talking to me? was
written all over his face. “Can
I help you?” he asked.
Here
his diction was crisp, with none of the lazy vowels we had heard
outside on the curb. It
was as if he had walked off the stage at the end of a play, and
now he was going to go wipe off the blackface and put on his
street clothes to head home.
“My
friend and I…” I started, looking at Marvin, “are going to
be stuck here for a couple of hours.
We saw you outside in the rain, and figured you could use a
cup of coffee.”
“I’m
just getting off, man,” said the skycap.
“I’ve been on my feet since 5 o’clock this
morning.”
“I
just got here by cab, and it was wall to wall traffic all the
way,” I replied. “Something
about a tractor trailer overturned on Interstate 20.
The guy on the radio said traffic was backed up for
miles.”
“These
damn interstates in Atlanta!
They’re always slow whenever we get a heavy rain, but
this is ridiculous.” The
skycap looked at Marvin and then he looked at me.
Our eyes met. My
eyebrows bobbed as I dipped my head towards the bar, and he was
hooked.
On
the way to the nearest lounge, we passed through a sparkling
marble atrium. A
violinist was tuning his instrument on the faux
patio at Ruby Tuesday’s. Marvin
was silent behind us as I queried the skycap.
“Are
you originally from Atlanta?”
“No,
I came here from Selma,” the skycap informed.
“Selma,
Alabama?”
“Yea,
man”
“Had
to get the hell out of there, eh?”
I said.
“Had
to go where I could make some money,” said the skycap.
In
some ways we were alike. We were two small town southern men, who
had ventured out into the world to seek our fortune.
But, although we were both hustlers deep down, the skycap
didn’t look like he had ever had enough guts to be able to draw
his line in the sand. He
hadn’t been able to see what I had discovered – that sometimes
the mountain does come
to Mohammed.
At
the stainless steel railing of the lounge I turned to see if
Marvin was still with us. The
drinks in the plush hospitality suite were free, and the staff
probably knew which newspapers he preferred - I wouldn’t have
blamed him if he changed his mind.
But when I looked back, he was right there.
“You’re
from Selma, right. So
how do you think an Uncle Tom acts?” I
asked the skycap. “What
kind of stuff does he do?”
“An
Uncle Tom, did you say? What
kind of question is that?” said the skycap.
I
looked over at Marvin.
“Me
and my lawyer friend here were just talking about the things
people will do to earn a living.”
The
skycap stopped to push his cap back onto his forehead and I saw a
few gray hairs in the side burns that framed the smooth brown of
his unlined skin. He
was a living Buddha, with a look on his face that suggested either
mental illness or heavy contemplation.
Whatever it was, it didn't look like I was going to get an
answer to my question.
I
spotted a table with a clear view of the lobby and pointed Marvin
and the skycap in that direction as I looked for a server.
“Marvin,
the only thing that matters in life is the power of money.
You do what you got to do to get it.” I said this to
Marvin and the skycap as I pointed towards a table at the far end
of the lounge.
“Show
me,” said Marvin.
“That's
easy.” I walked to
the bar and leaned over the mahogany edge.
“Hey, my man.” I
called to the bartender. “Don’t
you take Amex here?” I
tried to remember his name as his familiar brown thumb and stump
of a forefinger whisked my card away.
“I want you to put every drink ordered in this bar for
the next hour on my tab. The
only catch is, you've got to point me out to all the recipients.
Okay?”
I
turned to Marvin and the skycap.
“So
what do you guys want?”
“Tanqueray
and cranberry juice.” Marvin
recited as if by rote.
“And
for you?” I glanced at the skycap, who seemed to be a little
more relaxed now that he knew we didn’t really want anything
from him.
“Well,
I was going to get some coffee, but I guess I’ll have a Coke.”
As far as I knew, Atlanta people drank Coke instead of
coffee for breakfast.
“And
a Johnny Walker Red straight up for me.”
The bartender shuffled to the glass rack to prepare our
drinks.
“What
the hell do you do for a living, Joe?” said Marvin as he whisked
invisible crumbs from the seat of the chair facing the bar.
“I’m
a trader.”
“You
work on the Street? I've
got some friends at Salomon Brothers,” said Marvin.
“No,
I'm not that kind of trader.”
“What
do you trade then?”
“A
little of this, for a little of that,” I said.
“What?
What the hell are ‘this' and ‘that’?” demanded
Marvin.
The
skycap looked at me, his folded hands atop the table, one eyebrow
cocked as he drew his head in closer.
I looked at both of them for a second and then lowered my
voice.
“Have
you ever gone into your bank, and seen a guy sitting at the
managers desk in a real nice suit – but
it wasn’t a business suit?
The kind of guy who carries one of those very expensive,
very thin briefcases – but it’s not a business briefcase?
The kind of guy who gets the bank’s staff clicking and
clacking like their lives depended on it?
I’m that guy.”
By
the time the bartender sat down our drinks, the first new customer
had approached the bar. The
bartender kept pointing to our table as he leaned over the bar to
repeat what he had already said to the woman twice.
The
lady, heavily tanned with tennis legs and a face like Boom Boom
Mancini, walked slowly over to our table.
She stopped advancing when the skycap and Marvin turned to
look.
“Come
on. It's okay, ma'am.
We won't bite.”
“Do
I have to join you guys?”
“All
you have to do is answer one simple question.
You can stay if you like.”
“Can't
beat that, can I?” The
woman sat her carry on bag on the floor.
She tipped the chair, looped the handle under the front
leg, and then rested the chair on all fours.
“Shoot.”
“What
makes a black man an Uncle Tom?
Is it his actions?” I began.
“Or is being an Uncle Tom just another role that black
people act out daily to get along with you?”
Boom
Boom removed her full glass from her lips and sat it on the table.
“Sounds like I need to buy my own drink today.
What was that question again?”
“We're
trying to figure out…” I paused as I looked at Marvin, who
seemed to have withdrawn into himself, “…why some black people
will ‘put on a happy face’ for white people who have something
they want.”
The
skycap began to fidget in his seat.
“That's
human nature, Mr. -” Boom Boom waited for my name.
I
told her to call me Joe and then continued. “Think about this -
this bartender, with all the people he sees day in and day out,
remembers me whenever I come in here.
Why? Because when I walk through that door, he can count on going
home with at least 50 extra dollars in his pocket.
He doesn't give a damn about how much conversation I make.
You can get free conversation all day long, am I right?”
I turned to the bartender.
He was puttering around the tables near us, rearranging the
salt and peppershakers as he listened to our conversation.
“Something
on your mind?” I questioned the bartender, again, when he
didn’t answer. “Come
on, you're my man around here.
So what's up?”
“I'll
tell you what's up,” he grumbled, looking at Boom Boom. “When
Dr. King died black people started dreaming in sunshine, cause
there wasn't supposed to be no reason to hide our pride no more.
Can you see where I'm coming from?”
He stared right at Boom Boom .
“We wasn't supposed to have no reason to feel bad about
being black,” he repeated as the woman shook her head up and
down.
”So
what's the black program dealing twenty-five years later?
We got a damn air-conditioned gravehouse on Auburn Avenue,
rooms full of dead air and dead-ass negroes.
Nobody wants us, don't want no niggers, blacks, afro-
americans, no Asiatic black man, nothing black, to be no different
than we always were.” The bartender returned to Marvin and me--
”So I don't give a damn about no ‘have a Coke and a
smile’ nigger Toms.”
“It's
all a game.” I
said.
“Maybe
we didn't get everything, but things have changed,” said the
skycap solemnly. “My
son is going to the University of Georgia on a full scholarship
next year. A full
academic scholarship.”
“That's
awesome!” cheered Boom Boom.
“I
remember when Hamilton Holmes and Charlayne Hunter integrated the
university,” the skycap continued.
“But then the Ben Hill blacks always had access, were
always going to be the ‘firsts’.
Real progress is when someone like me, just a brother
slinging bags and hustling for tips everyday, can put his kids in
a system where they really have a chance to be somebody.”
“So
just how hard would you hustle to make sure your kid has some
spending change at this college?” Marvin eyed the skycap,
waiting for his answer. The fingers of his right hand danced
gracefully along the armrest of his chair as he peered at the rest
of us from deep in his chair.
I sipped my drink while eyeing the space between him and
the skycap.
“Pride
don’t buy no groceries,” breathed the skycap, breaking the
silence.
“Pride
doesn’t buy any-?“ asked Marvin.
“You’re
listening, but you’re not hearing me.” The skycap scolded.
He drained his glass of Coca Cola and sat it gingerly on
the table. “By the
time the freedom fighters left Selma, a lot of black people lost
their jobs and their
retirements. Who was
it that helped them to survive?
My father used to say, ‘somebody had to have some money
waiting to bail those folks out of jail.’ It was that shucking and jiving negro who made sure those
folks had something to eat. If
we all had bucked the system, the civil rights movement would have
rotted itself away in jails across the South.”
Boom
Boom looked at me “So, this is a good thing, right? Not challenging the system but trying to work it from the
inside?”
“So
what the hell does all this have to do with Negroes still
‘Tomming’ today?” questioned Marvin.
He had begun fumbling around in his pockets for his cell
phone, until he remembered that he wasn't taking any calls.
To a man used to billing people by the hour, we were
wasting his time.
“What
does that have to do with it?” I was on a roll now. “We go from slavery to equality in six generations, and
what do we have to show for it?
Not much. A
few Benzes here and there, a whole stack of diplomas all over our
walls. But what does
that shit mean when we have no money? So-”
“No
money?” stammered Marvin.
“I'm
not talking about you. You just might make partner. I'm talking about the mass of us,
the regular Joes who punch a clock every day.”
Marvin
turned to the skycap, ”You just work here because you like the
job, don't you? You
don't really need the money, right?” The undercurrent of sarcasm
hung heavy in the air.
The
skycap's eyes narrowed. ”Of
course I need the money. I
need every dollar I can get.” As he resumed sipping his coffee
he kept his eye on Marvin, studying the finely tailored cut of his
suit and the thick cap of black, curly hair that crowned his head.
Why
was Marvin on the skycap so hard?
I tried to figure him out. The
man's got a family, one of his kids is headed off to college, and
he's out here busting his ass everyday rain or shine.
He’s one of us.
I took another good look at Marvin's soft hands, his clear
hazel eyes, and I finally saw what the skycap already knew -
Marvin was the enemy.
“Hi.
The bartender said I got a free drink if I thanked the guy
in the plaid blazer.” A tall, florid man with a shock of black
curly hair announced this. His left hand covered his entire glass.
“Hi.
This is Joe, and he's going to ask you a trick question.”
Boom Boom replied with a smile, the ice in her glass tinkling as
she leaned back in her chair.
“Okay,
so what's the question?” Curly Top barked at me.
“What
color is your underwear?”
“You
didn't ask me that!” wailed Boom Boom.
“White
with blue stripes.” deadpanned Curly Top, smiling at Boom Boom's
wide face.
“What
does his underwear have to do with the Uncle Tom discussion?”
The skycap turned his neck to see who was behind him.
“Joe,
can you get the bartender? I
need another drink.” Marvin’s
eyes were very serious as he pushed his glass in my direction.
“Fly
guy number one,” I called to the bartender: “Bring everybody
another round.”
The
bartender stepped from behind the bar and strode over to our
table. “You're fly
guy number one, Mr. K.”
“I'll
have another Tanqueray and cranberry juice,” ordered Marvin.
“You're
buying more drinks? Why
didn't you say so?” Boom Boom drained her glass.
“Another Campari, please.”
“I'll
have some water this go-round,” said the skycap.
“I
haven't touched mine yet, but I’ll take another,” chimed Curly
Top, still standing.
“That'll
be all, folks?” asked the bartender as he collected empty
glasses.
“You
forgot me.” I
pushed my drink across the table.
“You
haven't taken more than one sip from your drink,” declared
Marvin.
“I
want a fresh drink.” I handed my nearly full glass to the
bartender. I could
feel all the eyes at the table searching my face.
“You
need to get this man whatever he wants,” the skycap told
the bartender, and I immediately liked him a lot better than I did
before.
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“So
what are you guys really talking about here, Joe?” Curly Top
pried from the edge of a chair as he had tipped backwards beside
Boom Boom.
“The
Uncle Tom problem.” Just
like he did with his clients, Marvin was helping to keep us
focused on the issue.
“I
should have figured it was something about race. So who’s got the problem with their Uncle Tom?”
“Joe
here thinks that it's not just a black problem, it's a problem for
everybody.” Boom Boom thought she was now my unofficial
translator.
“I
didn't say that,” I said.
“Then
what the hell have you been saying?” demanded Marvin.
“Well,
we all know black men are having so many problems,” said Boom
Boom, “that keep them in jail or on drugs so they can't get a
job and make some money.”
“Hold
it, hold it!” yelled Marvin. “There are four black men in this
room right now, and we are all working, we all have at least a
high school education-”
“Hey,
I got my college degree, too,” said the bartender.
“Sorry
about that.” Marvin apologized, before taking another sip of his
drink.
The
skycap unpursed his lips. “So
did I.”
“You
went to college?” Boom
Boom couldn’t believe it.
I
leaned forward. “As
Marvin was saying, there are four well versed, intelligent,
responsible black men in this room who aren't in jail, aren't on
crack, and ain't trying to rape you.”
I said this imagining her thick thighs through the table.
“Oh,
you guys are too nice for that,” said Boom Boom.
“What
you see is not always what you get,” I teased.
Boom Boom stopped sipping from her drink and the bartender
came over and stood behind the skycap.
“A
couple of years ago, I was walking back from lunch with two Wall
Street jerks, and in the middle of Manhattan this 1970 Nova
rumbles up to the light,” I
said. ”It had
regular house speakers in the back seat, pumping out this heavy
bass beat. The two
brothers rolling in it were about thirty.
They were slamming quarts of malt liquor, talking loud,
yelling at the skirts. One
of them hung his arm out of the window and looked dead in my eyes.
I said ‘Yo, brotherman, what it be like?’ and he jerked
his head back, yelling, ‘Don't
forget the neighborhood, Rockefeller.’
To
guys like them, all the Downtown Browns were Rockefellers.
One
of these jerks I was with shook his head as they drove off.
‘Look at them, drinking beer in the middle of the day.’
The other one started interrogating me. ‘Do you know those guys?
Why did you talk to those
guys?’
These
jerks couldn't seem to fathom that we were really the same, those
brothers and I. They
couldn't understand that there weren't enough of us bunched
together in any one social class to ignore all the rest, like they
could from their castles in Connecticut.”
I
looked from Curly Top to Boom Boom, feeling warm under the collar,
seeing the ice melt in the bottom of empty glasses.
”We’re not cardboard cutouts.”
The words seemed to be sticking to my tongue. ”Look at
us. There's more
under these blazers than the labels, right?”
“Well…”
said Boom Boom, “since you're not cardboard cutouts, let’s get
back to this rape thing.” The
Campari's had taken away her pre-flight jitters and she leaned
forward, the tip of her grenadine stained tongue flicking at the
bottom of the upper lip.
“What
about it?” It
looked to me like Boom Boom was having a seventh round surge.
“Well,
when you mentioned that rape wasn't on your minds, it sounded as
though you think all white women are afraid that all black men are
going to be after their goodies.”
“Are
you afraid?” the bartender asked Boom Boom.
“Of
course not.”
“You
guys gotta drop the sex talk.” Curly Top squirmed. ”I haven't seen my wife in almost two weeks.”
“I
understand where Joe was coming from earlier with his story about
the low-riders,” Marvin added.
”And it's not just white guys, it's other blacks too,
like the ladies who clean my building.
Ever since my second week, when they found out I was a
lawyer; they clam up when I come downstairs at night.
I make a lot of money, have a nice office, but I know
exactly who they are.”
“So
what's your point?” said Curly Top.
”You guys have made it, and it was hard. Woop de doo. You
think I've got it easy because I'm a white guy?
The bluebloods guarding the gate will never accept a true
southerner like me.”
I
watched Curly Top’s neck start to turn pink.
“Surprise,” I wanted to say to Curly Top. We do the same thing. In
our community, it’s the marvins of the world who guard the gate
against the skycaps.
The
heat from Marvin’s head had unfurled the ends of his curly hair,
until the loose black locks shook every time he moved his head. “You mean redneck!” he spat at Curly Top.
His narrow, ruddy nostrils were flaring, giving his nose
the appearance of being larger than it was.
Curly
Top’s narrow, ruddy nostrils were flaring, giving his nose the
appearance of being larger than it was.
“Who you calling a redneck?” he retorted.
The heat from his head had unfurled the ends of his curly
hair, until the loose black locks shook every time he moved his
head.
“Don't
give me that shit about how hard it is for you. There's no damn way you had it as hard as I have, that any of
us have.” Marvin
fumed.
“You
don't have to curse at anybody to get them to hear you, son” The
skycap’s pronouncement sliced through the thick air surrounding
Marvin and Curly Top.
The
spell had been broken. Marvin’s
eyes opened wide as he reared his head back
If I could have seen the inside of Marvin’s brain, I’m
sure it would have been on red alert.
A damn skycap telling
him what to do? His
hair was beginning to frizz, and the Tanqueray had tinged his eyes
a dull pink.
“I
just want Joe to get down to the brass tacks and stop giving us
these damn sermons. I
want him to show me how I was wrong about you, and what you did at
the check-in counter today.” Marvin leered at the skycap.
“Young
man, I'll have you know that I do my job as well as anybody else
around here, if not better,” snapped the skycap.
“That's
just it. I think you
do your job a little too well.”
“So
what don't you think I ought to be doing, Sir?”
The skycap’s lips clenched the tail of the title.
Everybody
at the table was silent. The
bartender had returned with the next round of drinks.
He stopped in mid-motion behind Boom Boom, his hand
gathering the trickle of condensation and alcohol that wet the
sides of her glass. Curly
Top sipped his drink and stared straight into the top of his
drink.
“I
think you need to stand up straight, do your job like a man, and
simply hold out your hand when someone offers you a tip.
You don't have to shuck and jive, or buck dance like some
damn Stepin Fechit to get your money if you’re doing such a good
job,” railed Marvin.
“So
I'm not a man??” boomed the skycap, “…because I don't stand
up straight on my job??”
Curly
Top's jaw was tight as he tried to decipher what was really going
on here. Boom Boom
sat up, her arms wrapped around her elbows.
The bartender began to serve the drinks, taking his time to
wipe the table before laying each napkin.
“Young
man, you think you're a man because you work in an office with
white men and their women and you get to wear a suit and tie like
they do. You might
even be a big-time lawyer, proud of having your own desk in your
own office. But
somewhere in that building you got a boss, and when you see him
coming you always remember all the things you're supposed to be
doing that you hadn't got done yet.
You
feel funny when out of nowhere he calls your name all of a sudden,
don't you, because you have no idea of what he might want. And when its time to get reviewed, you're scared as hell that
you might not get your bonus, or even a raise, because he's got
that power, and at that moment you will do just about anything to
keep this guy off your back, to keep him happy, to try to remind
him of all the good things you've done all year.”
Marvin
stared hard at the skycap, his jaw slack, his eyes covered by a
wet film.
“Am
I right?” the skycap continued. “Is that how it works at your
job, where men stand tall and act like men?
Let me tell you something, son.
Your job really ain't all that different from mine.
You've got one boss that puts you through the wringer once
a week, or maybe once a month.
I got fifty bosses a day, and I feel funny too whenever I
see one coming. I'm
always scared as hell that they don't or won't tip worth a damn,
so I got to keep each and everyone of 'em happy the best way I
know how.
And
the money I make, the crumpled singles and fives and tens I spread
out on my dresser every night?
They spend just like that check you get by direct
deposit.”
There
was disbelief in Marvin's eyes.
“Yea, right.” Marvin
got up and walked to the entrance to the bar.
He looked up at the flight arrival monitor for a few
seconds, and then stalked out of the lounge.
The
bartender whipped my old drink off the table and replaced it with
a fresh one without changing the napkin.
“Wait
a minute. I'm paying
for all these drinks. Can
I at least get a new napkin?”
“You
better keep Joe happy,” chuckled Curly Top.
“He's the one paying.
So he's the boss around here.”
He looked at Boom Boom and they burst into laughter.
The skycap smiled at me.
“You
still buying, Joe, or did our friend just end the party?”
Curly Top wondered.
“I'm
out of here.”
Curly
Top was already offering to buy Boom Boom another drink before I
got the words out of my mouth.
I turned to the skycap.
“Hey
man, I'm sorry I got you into this mess.”
The
skycap rubbed his brown fingers across his knuckles and stared
into the roughened palm of his hand.
I extended my arm across the table and his moist eyes
looked into mine as he gripped my hand.
That handshake was all that he said, all that I felt in the
bones of my hand as I strode to the concourse to catch my next
flight.
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