the light acts through each of us / your body / my
shadow
& we be come lost / nothing more than body shadows
it makes me want to weep & I wonder if eternity has a
way of
bringing things like this around / like so many seasons
let the pain of my heart / my very rib cage / let it
disappear /
i say this over over over / mantra of lost soul
i wait for the voice of god to spill from my mouth
but / it never does / the words spin end less / mind
less /
the snow falls thick / heavy with rain / icicles melt
from the rain gutters
trees bend to the ground / yes / dark winter night /
false lee lit
i imagine snow guides me / thru a black forest / all
those places i've been
i still dream california in january / but only on days
the sky is clear blue
the layer of snow in my yard pristine / only on those
days
no / it's no punk rock flop house with corners & rooms
to curl up in
late night highs / sitting in circles / the litter of
our lives / piled up around us
like so many filled ash trays & empty bottles / / we
were not knowing / not ever
knowing / what the out come of it all could & would be /
/ who dies / who lives
i still hold high hope / i lived
so you / lost one / reflection of every thing i never
wanted to be /
yin yang / the pain is the same for both /
& i'll never get past it / the yearning / the hope / the
time i spoke to you in dreams
i remember that you answered / put your hand to my face
/ stroked my cheek ever
so soft lee & said / i hear you / as you faded in to the
bed until all that was left
were blankets twisted in knots / & the feeling your hand
was still touching me
it hasn't gone a way / i still feel it
the pain never passes / & i wonder if this is my soul
journey /
how your words haunt me as i wait /
